In looking up images online to accompany this post, I realized that the saying “It’s not my job,” can easily take on a hands-off, highly snarky attitude. As in, “Hey, not my problem!” But that’s not my intention here.
Lately I’ve been working on the practice of not over care-taking. What I mean by “Not my job,” is that it’s not my job to over care-take for people, thinking I know what’s best for them. What I’m working on is taking people at their word, regardless of whether or not I think they know or mean what they’re saying. So, for instance, if someone says they can help me with something, it’s not my job to second guess them, based on what I think their abilities are. Let me try to explain, using a recent experience I had.
Last weekend I was in charge of our fifth annual community yard sale fundraiser at our local meditation center, where we sold off the donations we had collected over the last two months, from dozens of folks. After hearing about how someone, who was a bit older, had wrenched their back helping on the prep day before the yard sale, a sangha member approached me and suggested that perhaps for next year’s sale we find younger people to help out more. With there being so much lifting and heavy items to move around, he prompted, it might be a better fit for more able-bodied volunteers. He then went on to say how he knew someone from a couple of years ago that had helped with the yard sale, who had also gotten injured by over-working themselves, someone who was also a little bit older in age. I hesitated a bit in my response, wanting to craft my words in both a respectful and honest way. I wound up saying something like, “Well, I guess I would hope that in the future people wouldn’t sign up to volunteer for roles that they aren’t well suited for.” It was difficult for me to respond in this fashion, as I was concerned that it would be taken the wrong way, and I would appear uncaring and callous. But, as I am working on this whole over care-taking business, I felt it was an important step for me to take. If someone, regardless of age, offers to help during the yard sale, it’s not my job to question their abilities. It’s not like I was forcing people into it, “Help with the yard sale, or else!” While of course I don’t like hearing that someone over-worked themselves, it’s also not up to me to determine someone’s physical capacity by turning down their self-propelled offer to help.
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