*Long post alert. Normally I try to keep my posts on the not super long side, but not this time. This one is more of a processing post for me. It’s also a way for me to step into sharing about something that’s challenging for me to share about, hence why I’m not just keeping it just to myself.
This post is difficult for me to craft and send out into the world for a few reasons. 1) It feels like a vulnerable thing to open up about. 2) It’s important to me to convey the respect I genuinely have for my practice tradition, and not give folks the wrong impression or sow seeds of discord. 3) It feels as though I’m not supposed to talk about this. But as I am interested in being open and authentic to my experience, and also developing the skill of speaking both lovingly & truthfully when it comes to subject matters that are hard to talk about, here I am. We’ll see how this goes.
I have a heartfelt aspiration to become a Dharma teacher in my spiritual practice tradition, the Plum Village (PV) mindfulness tradition of Thich Nhat Hanh (whom I will refer to as Thay in this post, which means teacher in Vietnamese). And what I am currently processing involves what I see as the very likely possibility that my aspiration will not come to fruition.
Before I proceed, I’ll offer some background reference. As a lay person in the PV tradition, there are three main pathways a person can travel down, if they want to establish deeper roots. The first is to formally receive the Five Mindfulness Trainings in a trasnmission ceremony, which can be offered by a lay Dharma teacher or the monastic community during a retreat. The first stage is quite simple and not much is required other than one’s own desire to practice enfolding the trainings into their daily life. Attending a retreat or service where this ceremony is offered is the main logsitical requirement. It should be noted, too, that folks can also choose to practice with the trainings without formally receiving them.
The second pathway is to formally receive the Fourteen Mindfulness Trainings, which means you are becoming a core member of the Order of Interbeing (or OI member for short). In brief, the current process of becoming an OI member involves finding a lay Dharma teacher who will mentor you, and spending at least one year working with them directly. Ordination then happens when your mentor(s) deems that you are ready. There are certain specific criteria that one must meet (such as being actively and regularly involved with a local sangha), and one must also wait at least one year after receiving the Five Mindfulness Trainings before aspiring to become an OI member. One of the main roles of an OI member is to be a sangha builder (oh, and sangha means spiritual community).
The third pathway involves becoming a Dharma teacher. I’m not sure what the percentage is, but I would guess it’s well over 50% of OI members who don’t move onto this third stage. Whether it’s because they don’t have interest in officially holding the mantle of teacherhood or they stop being active in attending sangha or they’re simply not ushered forward by a senior lay Dharma teacher (which is what’s required), many OI members don’t become Dharma teachers. As a logistical point, typically one must be an OI member for at least 10-years, before potentially becoming a Dharma teacher apprentice.
I was placed on a Dharma teacher apprentice path by my local senior Dharma teacher 6 years ago, before I had my official 10-years in as an OI member. I ordained as an OI member in 2007, at the age of 28, so I’ve been an OI member now for over 15-years. Since being told I was on this pathway, the process & criteria involved for becoming a Dharma teacher have been frustratingly undefined and unclear to me. I’ve been in a state of mild to moderate confusion for 6 years. It’s not been great.
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