I’m starting to realize that off-grid land living is rather akin to what the process was like for me in becoming a person who practiced sitting meditation. Uncomfortable and strange and painfully unfamiliar. And yet, the heightened feelings of discomfort and strangeness and unfamiliarity were all in service to help flow the river of energy that is me – an often stubborn body of water, engrained in its ways – in the direction of something that was calling, and felt “right” to move towards.
Don’t ask me how or why, but paired together sometimes are discomfort & contentment. I know it sounds impossible, as though one would automatically cancel the other one out. I know it doesn’t make logical sense. Still, when one steps on any new path, when it’s the right one, the discomfort that arises is a different brand than we experiences when traveling on a path that is leading us astray. The differences are subtle, but they very much exist.
The body knows before the mind when it’s heading in the right direction.
Thing is, the idea of doing something will always be way different than actually doing whatever it is. Whether it’s practicing meditation or living off-grid or learning how to fly-fish or pursuing a new career. Before we get into the real live thick of it, our romanticized ideas will whisk us away into a magical land of make-belive, where rainbows and puppies exist in unending supply.
From as far back as I can remember, something has called and spoken to me to live a different way of life. Counter to the culture displayed on the main stage around me. Counter to the messaging we abundantly receive here in the U.S through media, entertainment, and advertising. Counter to the hardcore military-like training instilled in us to believe that happiness means looking a certain way, having certain things, or acquiring a certain professional status, and that success is measured by the size of your residence, bank account, collection of toys & gadgets, and amount of awards, degrees, and accolades received.
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